Tunes From The Psych Ward

by Miss Horizon Rose

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an album i wrote over multiple months in the hospital. an album about pain, recovery, and loss.

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released March 17, 2017

album cover drawn by my wife www.patreon.com/toolassistedcrow

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Miss Horizon Rose Mesa, Arizona

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Track Name: electricity & energy
the stars are burning out as they drift across the sky
their lights are fading out as they softly float on by
but i can't grab them, catch them, keep them close to home
i can't hold them tight and never let them go

(breathe the stardust, feel the light
break your heart before it breaks tonight)

let the stars pass by as i stand and watch them burn
let the lights in the heavens become my broken words
'cause i can't trust myself, i can't let myself be true
so twinkle, twinkle, little star, shine and show the truth

my heart is dead, come and bring it back to life
it's angry and dark, come and make it sweet and light
though i am tired, i am far away from home
the stars will guide me, make me feel much less alone

(breathe the stardust, feel the light
break your heart before it breaks tonight)

let the stars pass by as i stand and watch them burn
let the lights in the heavens become my broken words
'cause i can't trust myself, i can't let myself be true
so twinkle, twinkle, little star, shine and show the truth

i see the stardust as it glitters on my fingers
i see the shining stars above me tonight
i know my mind is on the glimmer as it lingers
across the dusk in the pale moonlight

let the stars pass by as i stand and watch them burn
let the lights in the heavens become my broken words
'cause i can't trust myself, i can't let myself be true
so twinkle, twinkle, little star, shine and show the truth

let the stars pass by as i stand and watch them burn
let the lights in the heavens become my broken words
'cause i can't trust myself, i can't let myself be true
so twinkle, twinkle, little star, shine and show the truth
Track Name: insomnia
it's 1:21 in the morning
& i can't really sleep
tossing and turning, up and down
when i should be sleeping deep

you know that i love you
i hope that you love me too
we're stars in the sky, we're burning bright
you're the sun, baby I'm your moon

i know what's keeping me up
& it's not my roommate's snores
it's the fact that i'm in love with you
& with others i'm mostly bored

i can't sleep because of my love for you
i can't sleep, i wanna know if you love me too
i can't sleep because you're all i need
i can't sleep and you're my sleeping - aid me please

you're the thing i dream about
when i can get to sleep, that is
you're the best thing that's happened to me
and you're the one i want to be with

some things i want more than life
more than anything i know
i wanna share my life with you
i wanna tell you I love you so

i know what's keeping me up
& it's not my roommate's snores
it's the fact that i'm in love with you
& with others i'm mostly bored

i can't sleep because of my love for you
i can't sleep, i wanna know if you love me too
i can't sleep because you're all i need
i can't sleep and you're my sleeping - aid me please

you're probably sleeping, at least it's likely
it's 2:43 by now
you're probably sleeping, at least it's likely
but i want you to know

i can't sleep because of my love for you
i can't sleep, i wanna know if you love me too
i can't sleep because you're all i need
i can't sleep and you're my sleeping - aid me please

i can't sleep because of my love for you
i can't sleep, i wanna know if you love me too
i can't sleep because you're all i need
i can't sleep and you're my sleeping - aid me please
Track Name: i found the inspiration for this on the back of a hospital door
just a sliver of your skin
an overdose of oxygen
they say that it is medicine
to be at peace would be a sin
tonight i'm trying just to breathe again

all i am is innocence
furious ambivalence
alive through my own diligence
my mind is so magnificent
but you don't get the true significance

i'm breaking down tonight
though you try to stop it, try to fight
i'm breaking down inside
all your wrongs become my rights
i'm breaking down
breaking down
tonight

i break my heart, i pace the room
this hospital becomes a tomb
my agonies are all renewed
i realize that i'm imbued
with qualities that keep me far from you

i look around, i come undone
the world around me weighs a ton
i'm taking hints from everyone
they tell me that i've been outdone
i've lost before i even have begun

i'm breaking down tonight
though you try to stop it, try to fight
i'm breaking down inside
all your wrongs become my rights
i'm breaking down
breaking down
tonight

i'm breaking down tonight
though you try to stop it, try to fight
i'm breaking down inside
all your wrongs become my rights
i'm breaking down
breaking down
tonight

breaking down
breaking down
breaking down
tonight
Track Name: faux affection
i know for sure you loved me; you told me as such
my love for you was as the stars, i loved you oh so much
but then you up and left me, without a second glance
you told me that you hated me, you gave me not a chance

and now
butterflies seem a little bit dimmer now (now that you're gone)
this hole in my heart seems a little bit bigger now (now that you're gone)
i know i wish you'd never left; i know i wish i could have you back
it's hard for me to write this song - now that you're gone

i'm pretty sure you loved me; it's hard for me to find
but you sure as hell didn't love me when i stepped out of line
you treated me like garbage, you told me i was wrong
i wanted you to love me, but we couldn't get along

and now
butterflies seem a little bit dimmer now (now that you're gone)
this hole in my heart seems a little bit bigger now (now that you're gone)
i know i wish you'd never left; i know i wish i could have you back
it's hard for me to write this song - now that you're gone

i don't know if i loved you, don't know if you loved me
'cause when i opened up to you, you told me just to leave
you told me i was off to hell, and now i don't know why
but every time i see your face, i feel like i should cry

but still
butterflies seem a little bit dimmer now (now that you're gone)
this hole in my heart seems a little bit bigger now (now that you're gone)
i know i wish you'd never left; i know i wish i could have you back
it's hard for me to write this song

i miss you, you know
the words you used to sing to me are poison to my ever-aching throat
i miss you, you know
but after what you said to me, i shouldn't feel a thing for you, i don't

and still
butterflies seem a little bit dimmer now (now that you're gone)
this hole in my heart seems a little bit bigger now (now that you're gone)
i know i wish you'd never left; i know i wish i could have you back
it's hard for me to write this song

butterflies seem a little bit dimmer now (now that you're gone)
this hole in my heart seems a little bit bigger now (now that you're gone)
i know i wish you'd never left; i know i wish i could have you back
it's hard for me to write this song - now that you're gone
Track Name: !!! you !!!
i took your hand, and you put your hand in mine
and in the dark, oh my heart it came to life
i trust in you, and i know you trust me too
this isn't rocket science, i was meant to be with you

and over space and time i always will come back
i'll always be there for you
and neither life nor pain nor death will make us part
this is my promise, my truth

and I know, darling, it is hard for you to be
open to someone that you know
but trust me, darling, i will keep your heart safe
i'll hold you tight, won't let you go

and over space and time i always will come back
i'll always be there for you
and neither life nor pain nor death will make us part
this is my promise, my truth

[chorus (vocalized)]

you're beautiful, my darling, you are my source of strength
you're wonderful and you are true
and i can tell you, darling, i can make you know
you're perfect, lovely, and I love you

and over space and time i always will come back
i'll always be there for you
and neither life nor pain nor death will make us part
this is my promise, my truth

and over space and time i always will come back
i'll always be there for you
and neither life nor pain nor death will make us part
this is my promise, my truth
Track Name: grow UP already
the sky tonight is starless, the ocean is dark
the lights of the city are dim in my heart
there's broken glass everywhere in the moonlight
the pieces are shattered and sharp

the sunset was so many hours ago
i can't see a thing in the moonlight's soft glow
it's three in the morning, and i'm still awake
what's happening to me, i don't know

what would you do, what would you do
if you could do nothing but fight

i'm clawing my way out of this hole i have dug
i'm destroying the things that i used to love
i'm telling my friends to all leave me alone
i'm sleeping on streets right in front of my home
i'm running so fast from the monster i freed
i'm leaving the things behind me that i need
i'm killing myself when i just want to live
"why do you want to die?" "cause i already did"

their eyes are boring through me, they keep pushing me away
they force me to go, though i just want to stay
i know it's not good for me, it's breaking me down
my view of them is blackened and grey

my head hurts, my head hurts, like a migraine but worse
the voices in my head, they are losing all their words
it's hard to understand them, it's hard to see straight
but when they leave me, i swear and i curse
what would you do, what would you do
if you could do nothing but fight

i'm clawing my way out of this hole i have dug
i'm destroying the things that i used to love
i'm telling my friends to all leave me alone
i'm sleeping on streets right in front of my home
i'm running so fast from the monster i freed
i'm leaving the things behind me that i need
i'm killing myself when i just want to live
"why do you want to die?" "cause i already did"

what would you do, what would you do
if you could do nothing but fight
what would you do, what would you do
if you couldn't see any light

i'm clawing my way out of this hole i have dug
i'm destroying the things that i used to love
i'm telling my friends to all leave me alone
i'm sleeping on streets right in front of my home
i'm running so fast from the monster i freed
i'm leaving the things behind me that i need
i'm killing myself when i just want to live
"why do you want to die?" "cause i already did"

i'm trying to stop it, i want to be free
they're trying to keep me, i just want to leave
i'm running away, cause it's all i can do
i'd keep myself safe, if only they knew

what would you do, what would you do
if you could do nothing but fight
Track Name: title pending please hold
my breath is cold, and yours is warm
your smile is wide, and it keeps me from harm
you take my hand, there's a blush on my cheeks
just between the two of us, you make my heart beat

i love you in day or in night
i love you in dark or in light
you are the stars in my dreams

your love is enough to make my heart pound
a flurry of smiles and never a frown
your eyes are soft, my love for you grows
just how much do i love you? only heaven knows

i love you in day or in night
i love you in dark or in light
you are the stars in my dreams

your love, your love, your love is enough
your love, your love, to make my heart blush
your love, your love, one thing that i trust
your love, your love, i love it so much

i love you in day or in night
i love you in dark or in light
you are the stars in my dreams

i love you in day or in night
i love you in dark or in light
you are the stars in my dreams
Track Name: if i'm demeter, what does that make you?
i feel the rain falling on my skin
and god only knows what i'm fighting
it's a heart attack, voices in the wind
a spark turned into a flame igniting

i'm broken down, collapsing into dust
and the stars light up like a wayward rocket
but i know right now, for the two of us
the boat is ours, we shouldn't rock it

and all i know is this is
our, our universe
our, our love and peace
we are the deities of our own heart

the fire in and behind your eyes
burns brighter than an inferno
of red and blue, of fire and of ice
the sky above, and the grass below

the fireworks blaze throughout the sky
i catch your gaze as the sparkles fade away
i kiss your face, i take your hand in mine
the night becomes the softest glow of day

and all i know is this is
our, our universe
our, our love and peace
we are the deities of our own heart

aphrodite is no match to your beauty
eros couldn't measure to your love
every angel and every mystery
is a poor substitute
for you

and all i know is this is
our, our universe
our, our love and peace
we are the deities of our own heart

our, our universe
our, our love and peace
we are the deities of our own heart
Track Name: divinity
give me your hand
'cause i trust myself with it more than with my own
give me your heart
'cause god only knows i've spent so many years alone

and i know that i'm unclean
but know you're everything to me

put your hand on my chest
rest your forehead on mine
so i know i am blessed
so i know i'm divine

wrap your arms 'round my waist
keep me sheltered and warm
with forgiveness and grace
keep me safe from this storm

give me your touch
cast away every look that's been laid upon this frame
give me your gaze
like it's the only thing that could take away this pain


and i know that i'm unclean
but know you're everything to me

put your hand on my chest
rest your forehead on mine
so i know i am blessed
so i know i'm divine

wrap your arms 'round my waist
keep me sheltered and warm
with forgiveness and grace
keep me safe from this storm

give me your moon
hide me in the shadows of the deepest darkest night
give me your sun
bathe me in brilliance, caress me with holy light


and i know that i'm unclean
but know you're everything to me

put your hand on my chest
rest your forehead on mine
so i know i am blessed
so i know i'm divine

wrap your arms 'round my waist
keep me sheltered and warm
with forgiveness and grace
keep me safe from this storm

and god and her angels may be what the world sees as holy
but as for me, i see you only
and you know and i know that god cannot touch us here
so as for me, i feel no fear

put your hand on my chest
rest your forehead on mine
so i know i am blessed
so i know i'm divine

wrap your arms 'round my waist
keep me sheltered and warm
with forgiveness and grace
keep me safe from this storm
Track Name: z
he sat in the hospital, dying as he waited
he knew he was dying, he knew he was fading
his pulse was getting softer, the DNR in his head
and he looked at the doctor, and this is what he said

give me one more minute; give me some more time
'cause this is just too close, and i don't want to die
give me one more hour, and give it to me please
i know that you can't do it, but you know it's what I need

she sat in the office, looking at her phone
tears in her eyes as she learned about her home
her kids, her job, it was all going away
and in that darkest hour, this is what she'd say

give me one more minute; give me some more time
'cause this is just too much, and i want to be fine
give me one more hour, and give it to me please
i know that you don't want to, but you know it's what I need

she took a deep breath, and she looked at her friends
not understanding any of her plans
they wanted to leave her because she was gay
and in that single moment, she heard herself say

give me one more minute; give me some more time
'cause this is worse than most, and i can't tell you why
give me one more hour, and give it to me please
i know that you can't help me, but you know it's what I need

give me one more minute; give me some more time
'cause this is just too close, and i don't want to die
give me one more hour, and give it to me please
i know that you can't do it, but you know it's what I need

what i need
Track Name: ponyboy
i remember when we were kids
i remember when we were perfect
young and brave, pure and sinless

and i had always watched the clouds
they told me stories of being bold
back before i ever asked forgiveness

and all i know is i wish i could be
back when i knew what was expected of me
when gods were gods, when the world was at my feet
back when i was young and wild and carefree

i like to think i always loved
with all my heart, with all my soul
blinding bright, in a blaze of beauty

and god himself could not compare
to what i felt when i was burning
i was my own god, to all who knew me


and all i know is i wish i could be
back when i knew what was expected of me
when gods were gods, when the world was at my feet
back when i was young and wild and carefree

and god is not the god of my childhood
god is not the god of my youth
but i am me, i'll always be
because i know the truth

cause all i know, is i will never be
back when i was a much younger me
and that's okay, 'cause i have started to see
that i am wild and beautiful and lovely
Track Name: the initial name for this song could've gotten me sued for copyright infringement
velvet voice, soft laugh, big heart, quiet grin
hide your face from the world - but you let me in

i love you in ways you cannot understand
i love you in ways you cannot comprehend

your voice, it rushes all around my brain
up and down and back and front, completely perfect aim

i love you in ways you cannot understand
i love you in ways you cannot comprehend

i want to tell you, want to let you know
how you are beautiful, how you are strong
happy tears in my eyes when i think of yours
how much i miss you between breaths on the phone
clawing fingers for you, never letting you go
tell me you love me

my heart tries to beat [beat beat beat beat beat beat]
out of my chest when I hear you speak
i love you in ways you cannot understand
i love you in ways you cannot comprehend

i wish your face was mine so i could kiss you in the mirror
i wish your heart was with mine, i wish that you were here

i love you in ways you cannot understand
i love you in ways you cannot comprehend

i want to tell you, want to let you know
how you are beautiful, how you are strong
happy tears in my eyes when i think of yours
how much i miss you between breaths on the phone
clawing fingers for you, never letting you go
tell me you love me

i love you in ways you cannot understand
i love you in ways you cannot comprehend
Track Name: ily
red
the color of the blood that stains my skin
blue
the arteries that run across my wrists

love
burn with passion, blaze bright as the sun
death
darkness passes, angels in the sky

i'm bleeding and i'm broken
and please come back tonight
i miss you, sweetheart, miss you
please come home to me
i know you hate me now
but i love you and i miss you
and you're awful and i hate you
but please come home to me

breathe
the air that's running gently through my lungs
sigh
i want to let my heart lay down and rest

soft
i'm trying to reach out and bring you back
hard
your heart when i just want to try again

i'm bleeding and i'm broken
and please come back tonight
i miss you, sweetheart, miss you
please come home to me
i know you hate me now
but i love you and i miss you
and you're awful and i hate you
but please come home to me

i want to see your face and know that you're okay
i want to scream at you for causing me this pain
i want to know you're doing better than you were before
i want for you to hurt and i want to bleed you dry

i'm bleeding and i'm broken
and please come back tonight
i miss you, sweetheart, miss you
please come home to me
i know you hate me now
but i love you and i miss you
and you're awful and i hate you
but please come home to me